After this recent election I didn’t sleep for 5 days. Just seemed like one really long day that eventually seemed like one really long dream. My sleep schedule is still messed up but I am sleeping again. Unfortunately I’m not waking up from this nightmare.

My grandfather credited the new deal with not only his life, but the lives of everyone in town. His father ran the local CCC camp and it provided the majority of the local work and food. Whatever food was leftover my grandfather would walk miles delivering to people who were starving.

At his funeral nearly 80 years later he had hundreds of people show up who were descended from people who he had delivered spare food to. I never really understood how serious his stories were until hearing so many people credit him with their lives. And all of that was directly possible because of the new deal.

To this day the hiking trails they made in the area are still in use as well. So the work was also meaningful.

Not in exact words, that I am aware of. But he has proposed rounding up illegal immigrants and locking up political enemies, protesters, as well as going after “the enemy within”. And has countless mentions of making an enemies list that has included everything from people who donated to Nikki Hailey to LGBT people or Democrats.

He wants to implement the Enemies Act of 1798 that was last used in WWII to place American citizens of Japanese descent in internment camps.

He has also recently proposed relocating the homeless, drug addicts and mentally ill to somewhere with cheap land.

He did say they can bring in doctors but given he is putting them there to remove them from society, the involuntary nature, and the massive funding cuts he wants in the federal government I would expect these to be terrible places.

Anyway we look at it he has been saying that he wants to detain millions of people in various ways for various reasons. What he does after that isn’t entirely clear and can devolve with time. With unchecked power it’s now almost completely in the hands of one person who was elected saying he wants this. Hitler didn’t run for office saying he would kill the jews, lgbt, disabled etc either.

If the judge is brave enough to actually put him in prison trump will just ignore it.

This is the guy who never pays his business partners. Who is going to make him go to prison? Someone immune to criminal prosecution and in charge of the military surrounded by yes men in control of every branch of government.

The same guy who has avoided all consequences for anything he has ever done up to now and was allowed to run again. The sentencing date was set specifically after the election to see the results first.

Honestly I would report the threat to the FBI. He is planning terroristic murders across an entire population of the general public and across state lines.

https://tips.fbi.gov/home

Every moment can be done in meditation. Making time would be great but if it doesn’t happen you can still give presence into whatever moment you find yourself in.

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Just wanted to say that I find your background really interesting. I live in the US and my older relatives came from Deutschland. They have all died by now, but I have lots of memories of the language. I have been attempting to learn the language now as an adult by myself.

I have never met anyone else in the United States who had any German family history or interest in the language. Curious which area you live in? Do you have other German speakers in your area?

Also same about not being able to maintain friendships. Maybe it’s just normal cycling as time passes and you both change. I also wonder if it’s because I have never met anyone that I could relate to or discuss my interests with. It may be that I am a low maintenance friend as well, you can contact me whenever, but some people get upset if you aren’t in nearly daily conversation.

I am middle aged but I know what you mean. As I got older I realized that I was creating the suffering.

Not fitting in can become a story that plays in your head. If you pay attention most the people around you don’t notice this or don’t care. For all you know they may feel they don’t fit in themselves either.

Even if it was true, would it really matter? I found that I was striving to meet societal expectations that weren’t things I even valued. Could it be that you feel left out because you feel pressured to meet these expectations but are just going through the motions?

Besides those typical reasons being an ausländer is going to be difficult regardless. Especially if you have autism. Maybe there just aren’t many people around that have your lived experience. That’s ok it’s a good time to meet different types of people. When you get back home you have the rest of your life to meet people you have more in common with.

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