I’ve been looking for a job now for over a year and I just wish someone could honestly look me in the face and just tell me “No, I’d rather see you die”.
I’ve filled out well over 2000 job applications now. I’m overqualified for anything immediate but never considered for anything in my field (SQA). This is the third career of mine thats been totally out sourced and I’m just so fucking tired of it all.
Finally had a promising lead but it was just another 0 feedback interview to tally up their interviewed candidates to make the minimum “effort” to shoe in someones friend. Nobody even read my resume and the interview was 10 minutes long. I hate that I know all of these tactics at this point and I especially hate being a pawn in that game.
I wish someone would honestly and truthfully just tell me they would rather see me die than help me find the means to support myself. Every “well keep you on file” is a goodbye.
I’m so fucking tired. Every opinion and suggestion is such bullshit: “do something else” without ever defining what else means, “work on your resume” while looking at your 28th revision, “Something will come” which never happens, or my favorite one “why don’t you work on getting your degree or certification [with your non existent money]?”
Nobody I’ve worked with and none of my friends have referred me anywhere in this year+, just strangers on LinkedIn with kind ears ultimately bound to the same systems that want me to die.
The only thing keeping me here is cooking for my family and being there for my wife but when everyone goes to school and work I truly understand why Garfield hates Mondays.
Try what though
Try something. Anything. Don’t stop moving. Don’t stop breathing. No one can give you advise based on your situation. You are the one in control. Don’t stay still. Don’t give up.
Nobody is in control of their destiny if someone else decides their fate. Eventually, the weary are told to or put to rest: I’m simply tired and wish not to march any further to the drum of the madness that is life.