I got a COVID infection a while ago that permanently disabled me pretty bad. Bedridden, unable to move much, etc.

The thing that really helped me was relaxing and listening to music. That’s what I spent my days doing as I couldn’t do much else. I became a real music nerd and just loved the bliss of hearing music.

A little later (two years). I got another COVID infection — I was taking very strong precautions, and couldn’t see anyone. It turns out I got it from my doctor. Anyways, this infection caused some brain damage which has caused me to mostly loose the ability to hear. And now I’m still mostly motionless alone in bed, but I haven’t even got the comfort of sound or music. Just a mostly silent (tinnitus filled) world.

I’m so scared of getting covid again. But mostly I miss the world and my old life. Being stuck alone in bed with only the internet for company sucks. People tend to be arseholes online. I can’t help but feel I got “natural selectioned”. Me and my wife were planning on having kids soon. Now I barely see her and I’m going to slowly die in a nursing home. There are specific genetic vulnerabilities to illnesses, and natural selection works with them (see what Europeans coming to America did). And I got fucked here. COVID was my end.

  • dohpaz42@lemmy.worldEnglish
    16·
    22 hours ago

    OP has lost their hearing, is bed-ridden, and has lost their future plans. And here you are kicking them while they’re down. There is absolutely nothing appropriate with anything you just said in your comment.

      • dohpaz42@lemmy.worldEnglish
        9·
        22 hours ago

        There is absolutely everything appropriate with it.

        If I gouge out my eyes, and then complain to everyone I’m sad now that I’m blind, I’m the one to blame for it. Why would anyone feel pity for me?

        Honestly, you sound as bad as those anti-vaxxers, sitting all high and mighty on your throne of shit. You think you’re better than OP because how dare anybody get sick if they were smart enough to get vaccinated like you. Your world is so black and white you cannot possibly fathom any grey in between. It’s ideologies like yours that hurt the rest of us the most.

    • kitnaht@lemmy.worldEnglish
      318·
      22 hours ago

      If they fell for it, then they’ve effectively destroyed their own life. I’m not going to be sympathetic towards antivaxxers. The whole world worked as fast as possible to get people protected. If this person then rejected all of that work, all of that effort, and ended up like this? – Then they did it to themselves.

      • dohpaz42@lemmy.worldEnglish
        14·
        22 hours ago

        You don’t have to be sympathetic. You also don’t have to be an asshole and rub it in. You know nothing about this person, and yet you’re so quick to pass judgement. I pity you more than I pity OP.

        • kitnaht@lemmy.worldEnglish
          119·
          22 hours ago

          You should probably pity OP more. They lost the genetic lottery on this one. I haven’t had COVID. I’ve been actually harassed and bullied because of the protections I took.

          So fuck antivaxxers.